September 27, 2012

"the delight of nothing"

This has been a wonderful day to walk around the area, and we've taken that chance extensively. Today was perfect for having a ridiculously long breakfast, for finding an old bird and for taking a picture of some crazy plants. Today was absolutely made for a great ending, with the most delicous scones in town. Finally we've done it. Finally we are happy, taking a break. There's nothing else planned for tomorrow, but the same easy life as today. How easy it is to forget about all those lazy pleasures. How easy it is, to be reminded and enjoy, like a long time ago.

September 22, 2012

"not uncommon"

“For the first time, she did want more. She did not know what she wanted, knew that it was dangerous and that she should rest content with what she had, but she knew an emptiness deep inside her, which began to ache.” (Iain Pears)

Coming from a generation that is always so good in praising freedom, individualism and self-fulfillment, I definitely thought to be on the safe side. Doing what I want, following those dreams in my head, and taking one or the other rain check in between. Fully aware of the risks and in almost total control, of where I am heading. At least it looks like that, if it wasn't for those little attacks our heart suffers from time to time. Those sudden and intense cuts, out of nowhere. Cuts that might leave you stunned, sometimes with tears, but at least wondering. They can happen any time and they'll remind you of long forgotten longings, of fantasies that you've neglected casually. And then, all over sudden something triggers them unexpectedly. And tonight, they've caught me. Kind of hard.

Of course, this did not happen for the first time. And of course, I always knew I wasn't safe.

September 19, 2012

"a day that wasn't"

The list for today had been long and I would be very proud, to announce it was done. Actually, nothing really worked out the way it was intended to. No early morning, no intensive hours painting or even researching, I never seriously made it beyond the background picture of the studio computer, and no proper lunch above. Only some fruits thrown in a bowl and chocolate cookies aside. Actually, this had been one of the most ignored days in a long time. What hasn't been ignored though, was a good dose of sleep and a little more daydreaming. I will go on with this and neglect efficiency until tomorrow.

September 16, 2012

"within & after"

Somehow I never manage to shoot proper pictures during our studio dinners. While preparing, time is always extremely limited. To be honest, we barely make it until the first guests arrive. Very often, the early birds get friendly invited to lit some candles or to open up the wine. Throughout the night then, I get totally caught up in conversations, lost in enjoying the food, simply lost in the moment, and suddenly I will notice, it happened again. So here are some tiny bits from last night, but I guess you'll get the picture anyway. We had a great night, a long one too, and today there was a lot of cleaning to do around the Fishbowl. Now everything is set up and the couch will own us for the rest of the day. The upcoming week looks incredibly busy, but tempting too.

September 14, 2012

"a table to unite"

I've been thinking. While working on the "respect" project and listening to the husband, making some decent noise for tomorrow's Speak Easy Club, I've been wondering how much of an effort I, for myself, put into respecting others. And why I do things, how I do them? What is important, when it comes to connections and social living? The most important part to me, never to give up on people. In a way of, no matter what happens, within a group of silly idiots, there will always be one who is different. The one, who stands out and who makes it worth all the energy and the time put into not giving in into anger and frustration. Bringing people together owns a huge chunk in my life and hopefully, I will never change that attitude. To open up those doors and setting up a dinner table for strangers, has often presented me with the most amazing souls. Keeping those encounters in the back of my mind and getting it out in the right moment, can actually smooth the wildest anger. Therefor, we'll get it cooking. Again and again.Wishing you a wonderful and a delicious weekend too.

*Soup of grilled Pepper 

*Porkroast braised in Cidre
with fresh mushrooms
Bohemian Dumplings

*Plum Lasagne



September 12, 2012

"on humans & grapes"

Between two commissioned portraits and short lunch breaks, I have finally started to work on a project, that has been in the back of my mind for a very long time. There is not a lot I can say about it just yet, but it has something to do with respect and it is planned as a sticker series. Maybe a little like the buttons I made for Neukölln Bites last year, maybe completely different. I'm only approaching the idea in tiny babysteps. The point is, that living in a city like Berlin, very often pushes you over your boundaries. And I guess that counts for most of the larger cities. Berlin is absolutely great, but it can also be quite loud, crowded and rough too. People seem to watch out mainly for themselves, which is probably simply human, but we do seem to forget a bit too often, on how our actions can affect others. Once in a while, it would be so easy to make life a bit smoother. Other lifes, and our life as well. If we could only remind more often, on how we appreciate to be treated with respect.

September 06, 2012

"presents & preparations"

artwork by Céline Schroeder
After a very short night, it is back into the studio. Feeling far too blurry for this, but as my Grandfather always said:" You choose it." Tonight the Fishbowl will open it's doors to be part of First Thursday Berlin and there is still a lot to prepare. Used to the Open Studio routine, this time, I am acutally quite excited. Hoping for some interesting hours.

Besides that, I have finally brought myself, to give Twitter a try. I know I am a little bit of late bloomer here, but if you are in the mood for a little more Fishbowl action, it would be a pleasure to meet you there. Let's have a look into how much fun this it.

September 02, 2012

"focused times"

Nothing's gonna stop me now. Well, maybe a sore throat does. But only a little bit. This has been one busy week; new shelves, rearranging, competitions and some grumpy handy men included. The grumpiness has been smoothened with some good coffee though and now it feels so good to have accomplished almost everything on the list. Besides, I have watched the impressive documentary about Maya Lin, the designer of the Vietnam Veterans Memorial in Washington. I did know very little about her and the struggle, that came with winning the competition. Her calm, but steady strength totally amazed me. I guess, less fuzz and a bit more on the focus side, would do me good as well. Even more so, as the next week will be a tough one too. On power, focus and sweets on top. Have a wonderful week.